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04.06.2018 (472 Days Ago)

Three, I have to find the right father for him.

I could not understand now the many challenges wrought by my decision to marry my Son's dad. It all went wrong after that. But, I knew I could make it right, NOW.

My concepts of the material world have not quite landed well yet. At a young age I was already thriving in all that I do, running country programs, leading teams for the sort. All material things follow suit. I was just happy doing my job.

But when I got married, I had to face this being who is an anti-thesis of All Who I Am. At this point, I realized I have placed myself in a situation where even my family and my birth mother is an anti-thesis of Who I Am. But how could that be?

One of the main lessons was for me to get back more and more to my money-generating alignment so that I could provide well for my Son, as I have always been the independent one, especially since the father is still full of anger since our separation in the start of 2013.

Only that before, my passion and material needs are well aligned and met, even as I appreciate my material ease, I am not attached to it. I still am not. Maybe that is the issue that I need to ground now that I have established my own Wellness Center circa 2014. I have no desire to achieve a certain amount or to own particular properties or accumulate staggering wealth. These just do not interest me. I could have had done that years back before my Center. Now they must interest me if I wish to expand and explore the world with my Son, but I have challenges bringing my Self to it. In my process of Creation, the sole basis always is the enjoyment and joy of Creation of being and doing, and then having follows suit so fluidly and easily. But how do you marry advocacy again with business? I will remember how I felt while I was doing advocacy passionately while in the government and the UN. Maybe I will remember. And take flight and soar. :)

With all these, though, I have gained much wisdom not only in the mind, but mostly in the heart and soul. I am still in the journey. I know better that I Am being the better of the better version of my Self with every encounter. The mantra "Every Moment of Every Day I Am More Kind, More Loving, More Forgiving of My Self and Others" truly works. It builds on its strength by the moment. It is more grounding. It is soooo easy to say. But in the cocooon, the litmus tests are sometimes almost unbearable.

Always, bringing my Self back to my Self presents a key to unlock the energies. I am not sure if this relates to anyone, but here it is. I have written as a way to express my Self, and in doing so, maybe find its way of opening wisdom in others.

Written in Love with the One True Infinite Creator. Adonai. <3

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Children.

I have one child of my own.

Long before he was born, I had an image in my mind.

He would be strong, agile, quick of mind, happy, witty.

I knew instinctively I had to prepare for his coming.

One, was to make my body stronger and be in the best of health, for i knew this was what I will pass on to him in my womb.

Two, not only my physical body, but my mental and emotional health and spirituality were also to be aligned. I did not have the concept of "Wholeness" at the time, surprisingly as I look in hindsight.

Three, I have to find the right father for him.

I could not understand now the many challenges wrought by my decision to marry my Son's dad. It all went wrong after that. But, I knew I could make it right, NOW.

My concepts of the material world have not quite landed well yet. At a young age I was already thriving in all that I do, running country programs, leading teams for the sort. All material things follow suit. I was just happy doing my job.

But when I got married, I had to face this being who is an anti-thesis of All Who I Am. At this point, I realized I have placed myself in a situation where even my family and my birth mother is an anti-thesis of Who I Am. But how could that be?

One of the main lessons was for me to get back more and more to my money-generating alignment so that I could provide well for my Son, as I have always been the independent one, especially since the father is still full of anger since our separation in the start of 2013.

Only that before, my passion and material needs are well aligned and met, even as I appreciate my material ease, I am not attached to it. I still am not. Maybe that is the issue that I need to ground now that I have established my own Wellness Center circa 2014. I have no desire to achieve a certain amount or to own particular properties or accumulate staggering wealth. These just do not interest me. I could have had done that years back before my Center. Now they must interest me if I wish to expand and explore the world with my Son, but I have challenges bringing my Self to it. In my process of Creation, the sole basis always is the enjoyment and joy of Creation of being and doing, and then having follows suit so fluidly and easily. But how do you marry advocacy again with business? I will remember how I felt while I was doing advocacy passionately while in the government and the UN. Maybe I will remember. And take flight and soar. :)

With all these, though, I have gained much wisdom not only in the mind, but mostly in the heart and soul. I am still in the journey. I know better that I Am being the better of the better version of my Self with every encounter. The mantra "Every Moment of Every Day I Am More Kind, More Loving, More Forgiving of My Self and Others" truly works. It builds on its strength by the moment. It is more grounding. It is soooo easy to say. But in the cocooon, the litmus tests are sometimes almost unbearable.

Always, bringing my Self back to my Self presents a key to unlock the energies. I am not sure if this relates to anyone, but here it is. I have written as a way to express my Self, and in doing so, maybe find its way of opening wisdom in others.

Written in Love with the One True Infinite Creator. Adonai. <3

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Anti-Rational and Start Up of Anastasia Villages
472 days ago 0 comments Categories: Energy of Love Mood: Amused Tags:

I have met dissent as well as welcoming embrace when I left my career in the mainstream that is not so "mainstream", pursuing actions arising from thoughts as Anastasia and her family have lived true to form for eras past. It was never easy, but my heart knew where it would take me right from when I was very young. And here I am. My son just told me "Ina (Mom), you are unusual and normal at the same time". To most people, I am always the former.

Anastasia villages, villages coming back to God, the First Source, here we come. :) May our Love only multiply and grow forth in Strength and Beauty!

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